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Letting Go Can Be Hard

on Mon, 08/06/2012 - 20:03

 

I recently found myself repeating a pattern that didn't serve me.  I'm going to share it, because I know it's not unique to me, it's a "human" thing.  I noticed how committed I am to supporting others to thrive in their lives.  So much so that I neglected to see that I was not thriving in all areas of my life.  This realization was painful.  I spent a month supporting my sister and her family.  I served on a non-profit board for nearly 8 1/2 years.  I graciously gave of my time, energy and money, but felt unappreciated.  Feeling unappreciated is not a new concept for me.  What is new is choosing to put myself first and focus on thriving in all areas of my life.  What this looks like in practice is saying "Yes" to opportunities that support my well-being, generate money or lead to a fullfilling full-time job.  Opportunities that distract me from this path are becoming "No's".

Today, I found myself in tears over my car needing repairs.  The level of emotion did not seem to fit.  I quickly realized that my letting go of my old ways of being and choosing me is hard.  I am choosing to leave the board tonight and that is painful.  This organization has been my primary relationship, full-time job and commitment for a long time.  It's a big part of who I claimed myself to be.  Well, it isn't who I am, it's what I did.  I'm free.  Free to create new possibilities that nuture me and have me thrive.  How about you?  Are you thriving in all aspects of your life?  Are there areas in your life that you need to let go of and choose differently?

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